I'm ready

I'm feeling really positive this month. I'm not sure why but I'm at peace. I think after dealing with infertility so long you become almost numb to the situation. Slowly I'm able to pick myself up. I've been in such an odd place lately but I'm okay now.

I'm happy that I'm feeling better mentally. I'm hoping I can stay positive and not sink back into the numbness. I know I have a purpose in life I'm just not sure what it is. I'm thinking about doing something for myself. I'm thinking a new hair cut would be something fun.

I think if I keep doing things that make me happy that in the end I'll get to be happy. My husband has been nothing but supportive which is great. I think I'm ready to just be happy. It's funny you have to let yourself happy. I've lived so long feeling so numb. So sad... So hopeless.. Infertility takes a lot away from you. I wish that was the only thing I had on my plate.

We all have things to do deal. So if your reading this do something for yourself. Get yourself out of that funk.. I'm chopping hair off and starting fresh. :) Thankfully my hubby likes shorter hair. I'm keep the faith that God knows what he is doing. Ready to just live my life.