October 15th

So October 15th for me was filled with mixed emotions. As some of you know it was Pregnancy and Infant loss awareness day. I had never thought that day would have been any importance to me until we lost our angel Hope.

I wasn't myself that day at all. I cried a lot thinking about Hope and missing her. I thought about how hard it was to loose her. I didn't feel alone on that day at all. So many others we're posting about their losses. I felt so bad for so many people. It's something you wouldn't want to wish on anyone.

Even people who hadn't lost babies we're posting about it. I think it's wonderful that people realize that people struggle with the loss of a child. Some of us have only had our babies grow in our womb for a short time while others got to experience the birth of their child only to have lost them. My heart breaks for each of them.

I'm not happy I had to learn the importance of such a day but I'm thankful for the support I received on that day. My life hasn't been the same since our loss in May. Frankly I'm not the same. That's okay though I wouldn't think I would be.

2013 has had so many ups and downs it's not even funny. I'm hoping for a good ending to this year. We will see what God has in store for my husband and I. I can only pray it all works out.

**Baby Dust**

Miscarriage Awareness Month

So as some of you may know October is Miscarriage Awareness Month. I've been seeing so many post already about it. It's heartbreaking to know how many people have lost their babies. I think is what makes it harder are these are people who wanted those babies too... I am 1 in 4.

I had my miscarriage back in May of this year and it was hard. I feel for the people who have had a miscarriage. I think what's even worse are the people who have had several miscarriages. Not everything in life is fair I understand that. Yes God has a plan for everyone. I've talked to a few people who have had 8 or more miscarriages.. All I have to say are those are some strong woman to have to go through that.

So many people will never speak of their miscarriages to anyone outside their comfort zone. If you haven't had a miscarriage you probably know someone that has. Or even you know someone that has had one but they have never told you. For those of you who have never had a miscarriage you are very lucky.

To those of you who are trying to conceive right now after a miscarriage I hope you get your Rainbow baby!!!!! For those of you who don't know what a rainbow baby is I found this on a page and I will share it with you. "Rainbow Babies" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.
~Courtney
So needless to say it is a baby born after a miscarriage, stillborn or a loss. I know some people who hear the term Rainbow Baby get confused and think it means something else. Anyways I hope you all are having a wonderful week!!!