It's not that it's making me want to cry just more anxious than anything. Plus I feel the emptiness in the my tummy again. Every so often I get that feeling of something is missing which it is. So as many know we are allowed to try again. So fingers crossed it's going to happen. I know it's going to be the waiting game each month.
All I know is I HATE negative pregnancy test results I've had 5 years worth of them with a few chemical pregnancies thrown in. Knowing that each month I could be seeing negative results makes me sad. I know I used to cry almost every month when I'd be late and test negative.
Who knows what is meant to happen... I know what I want to happen but it doesn't mean it is apart of the plan God has for me. I guess I just hope God has a child or children in our plan. Even though I do have a child in heaven.. I guess that means I'm just hoping for at least one more but for him or her to be meant for earth.
Dealing with infertility and now a miscarriage is hard. It's a mix of emotions every month. All I can truly do is stay positive and keep moving forward. Even though the stress of it all is too much sometimes. So I know I'm going to hear the just relax part it's bad for yada yada.. What I can say is I've done research and been told by several doctors stress doesn't play apart in infertility or getting pregnant.
I hope everyone is having a good Tuesday!!!!
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Honey speaking from someone who has been tgere... I know how u feel. I lost my angel sethemory at 20wks I went through full term labor with him and everything..... after 6 1/2 long diappointing yrs I got pregnant with twins but one passed away..... now I have another baby boy after 2 more miscarrages so hold ur head up and it will happen when u least expect it.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for all of your loses. We are hitting 5 1/2 years now with our journey. You are so strong to have gone through what you have. Thank you for reaching out to me.
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