He really has been kicking up a storm this week and you can really see my belly move when he does it. It's fun noticing the difference between a punch and a kick. I'm sure the bigger he gets the more I wont like feeling those hard kicks. I stepped on the scale a few days ago and looks like I've gained a total of 6bs so far during my pregnancy.
I've been having heartburn at night and was starting to only feel nauseous at night time. I think the nauseous part hopefully is going away again. I have been having bad anxiety which isn't pregnancy related it has to do with my normal Anxiety and PTSD. So I have realized that in order to feel better therapy is something I will be doing again This will be my 3rd time doing therapy.
I've had many things in my life happen to me and I know the sounds and people who trigger me. I have been in a constant state of anxiety for over a week now. So much that now sleeping has become even harder. I sleep best in the day by taking short naps. For some reason my anxiety isn't well controlled at night time. So due to everything going on with me right now therapy has become my best option. I start Jan 28th again and I hope this will help me find peace.
One goal for therapy is being able to be in a car again without fear. I literally have an anxiety the entire time I'm in a car and hold on to things for dear life. I'm tense and at a drop of a hat I begin to cry. I wont go over what has happened to cause this fear but 2 car accidents.I'm not even going to call the 3rd one an accident. I don't drive so none of these we're because I was driving. My fear is enough to be 28 and not have my license. I don't admit that to many people.
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